2006-06-02 - 10:20 p.m.
My hands tremble at the burden of these keys. I remove my jewelery and it starts. Force out addictive substances....check. Elliminate toxic fuckwads from my life and routine......check. Establish reasonable goals for the future in education, finance, health, romance and investments.......I think I am getting hives or indigestion. I miss those people I cared alot for but never expressed it to, those people I had grerat conversations with, reflective, co-operation and disagreement, exchange of reparte and a general affinity (with). I feel these changes have come to late, or some other form of inoppurtunity. Regardless, there are other things to mourn or complain about: Like where are the Loftings? I haven't seen Erin in like six years. Okay, that's an exageration. I havent' seen Jill in like ten months. I miss her. I miss alot of people for the first time ever. I never miss people. Today feel terribly raw, completely less pretentious than yesterday, and most likely, tomorrow.
